IT'S ALIIIIIIIIIIVE

so i check and check and check and check and yet fedex.com says my new iphone is in memphis until suddenly... "DING DONG" the fedex guy... ITS HERE AND I OPENED IT AND AM ABOUT TO PLAY WITH IT!!! expect an unboxing and write up on it in a few days/weeks. anyway, i am off to play... THANKS STEVE!!! (i mean mr. Jobs)

iphone and dads day

Good news everybody. we both got shipping confirmations on our new iphones!!! this is good because we thought we would get another sort of email, one that says "order cancelled" BUT WE DIDNT!!! they will be here on thursday as ordered, also included in the email are tracking numbers for fedex. we cant wait to get them.

next is fathers day, i know that there are a lot of people who celebrate fathers day, i dont. my father is alive and i have a great father in law (even though he is a complete nut job) but i dont get along with my father. i have always had a dislike for fathers day because my father is not really worthy of celebration... yes he had a part in giving me life but as far as raising me and feeding me and all that mess he was pretty much not involved. so i am here at my moms house celebrating the fact i dont have a father... whoopee

is this annoying yet

ok so i am sure that this may get annoying, and i know that it may seem that i am just blogging around big events in tech but... i think this may be the event that springboards me into a consistent blogger.

in order to, hopefully, prove my commitment to this whole blog thing i am willing to share my plan with you. i plan on carrying around a small notebook where i will write down random thoughts that i have during the day. i will take these thoughts every few days or weeks or so and compose them into a well organized blog. this will, hopefully, incorporate well with my next public voice which is a motorcycle vlog. i dont have a motorcycle yet but i am going to work on that as soon as my wife gets a new job and we become more financially stable (i realize that we just blew a ton of scratch on the new iphones but what you gonna do, huh).

next topic; flaming lips new disc. i am a huge pink floyd fan, in particular dark side of the moon. this album has been on my top 10 of all times from the first listen, which i admit was rather late in my music life. i can not hear one song from this album with out feeling the overwhelming need to grab my ipod and listen to the entire album. so a few months ago the flaming lips were on jimmy falon playing breathe. i was amazed. i am not a flaming lips fan, i want to be but i cant get into them at all. i was really impressed to say the least of their performance. while i was in jersey last week i decided to grab the cd... i would usually just download it from itunes but i can not resist buying something from a groovy record shop like the one i found myself in that day. anyway, i am in LOVE with their version. they really do the floyd justice. they carry the initial sound of breathe throughout the entire album, just the way floyd would have done. each song is carefully re-imagined to fit the style of the lips yet still embraces the vibe of the original album. i felt like i was floating on a cloud of musical goodness.
anyway, you should pick up a copy if you are either a pink floyd fan or a flaming lips fan.

iphone update...

so i stayed up most of the night, i went to bed at 4 and had to wake up at 630 for work. i tried and tried and tried to order a new iphone with little luck... stupid att get your shit together!!! anyway, finally around 5 this evening i got one through, i bought my wifes phone and gave up on ordering my own. thats right, mr. tech made the ultimate sacrifice and did not order himself a new piece of tech so his wife could have one. i thought, oh well, i could play with hers and order a white one and trade with her when it comes in. so i told her i would try later but i was sort of giving up. about 10 minutes later she said "YOU GOT IT!!!" i was like "what?!" and she was like "that right..." she tried twice and ordered mine, silly minks. she felt bad that she was getting one and i was not. i am honoured to be married to such a wonderful woman, i didnt need a situation to realize this but i feel she deserves a special shout out. this is, once again, proof that i married an awesome person. i love you, and i will never leave you nor forsake you sweetheart. i am lucky to be married to you.

anyway... i need to go buy her some dinner and a beer.

here we come iphone here we come...

so here it is 130a and i am wiped out... yet i am no closer to a new phone. apple store is down for update and att sucks. mel has started me on party down, i hope that holds me till 2 when i think the store will reopen. this is exciting!!!

new phone

so i know that this is a bad decision as far as sleep is concerned but i think this is fun. my wife and i are waiting up for the iphone 4. we love our 3gs and were really excited when steve (yes he and i are on a first name basis, hey steve) announced it a few weeks ago. i am hitting the refresh key over and over while they update the store... this is so exciting!!!


more later

nothing new

unfortunately i dont have anything to talk about at the moment. my wife and i have been rearranging our house the last week. our goal is to be completely done in 3 weeks. the past few days have not been that productive though. maybe this week we will get a lot done.

transportation

so i was just picked up by my friend from the airport. i flew from abilene airport to dfw then on to phili. in dfw i was given the option to give up my ticket so that no one will be upset because they overbooked my flight. i called my buddy and he said that he could pick me up later and that i should go for it (they gave me a huge travel voucher for doing it). so they needed 3 seats and they got 2, me and this older lady, but i didnt know that until later. the first time i saw this lady, Pat, she was standing next to me amongst the anxious passengers awaiting a seat on the plane. there were a TON of military there traveling. no, they werent patrolling or there to secure anything, they were just flying. so this uniformed serviceman walked by her and she stopped him. she gave him some money, he politely refused but she insisted. i couldnt hear all that she said but i could make out that her husband was in the service and that she really wanted him to have it. so he took it and thanked her kindly. sweet kid, sweet lady. so the guy at the counter called us both over so that we could sign our ticket away, get our vouchers and get our new ticket to phili. so the guy instructed us to go to terminal meaw in section meaw and wait for our flight to be called at like 2:00. she looked at him like he was speaking vulcan or something. so i said "i just came from there" which was somewhat true, i had been close. "i will take you there since i have to go there too. so we walk to the escalator and then on to the tram and so on and so forth. we talk the entire way there. when we arrive at the terminal we split up and i get some food and after i ate i ran into her again. we wound up sitting and chatting until they called our flight at 2:45. she told me about her husband and how he was a pow of ww2, she even gave me a pin that commemorated his squads capture. we talked about the war and how she still goes to the reunions and her kids and their kids and so on. her husband, who was a gunner on a plane, was shot down by a group of 14 year old german kids that were pulled out of school to join the german army. she also told me that one of the germans that were shooting at his squad contacted her son, who helps with reunions of the event and all. basically both groups became friends and forgave each other. the visit each others annual reunions and write to each other and have become good friends.

i LOVE this because even in times of war, even in times of hate and aggressiveness and violence we are all still human. we all still have feelings, no matter what training we endure that is meant to make us cold and unloving. no matter what we are told to do and how that hurts others we are still human. we need to forgive and be forgiven. we need to be aware that we need these things. if we are aware of this i think that we will be a little happier.

new possibilities

so my boss called me this afternoon. he offered me to support a new series of products. one that is new to me not the company. it would entail selling to other doctors. this may seem like a good thing but in reality it is not. you see i hate what i do, i really dont like the company that i work for, and i most certainly do not like the medical industry. i am between a rock and a hard place because if i say yes to my boss then i will be more locked into a job that i hate and my stress level from it will be unmanageable, it is almost to that point now. the reason for that is that i get absolutely no support from my company. if i have a problem all i get is a stream of excuses. that never pleases the doctor. this company already has a horrible reputation here and if i try and promote a new line of products it will fail and i will lose my job. the docs that this product is targeting already have a very strong relationship with the reps and companies that they are using now. they will not go with a company that they hear is crap and that is competing with the companies that they already use.

you see, this is a very cut-throat industry, and i am by no means a cut-throat kind of guy. if i say i dont want to do it there is a strong chance that i have written my own death notice with the company. this is really not good because my wife just lost her job. it is also not good because i have no marketable skills. it will be super hard for me to find another job. i have been toying with going back to school but for what? there are so many factors that i am becoming very confused. i also owe a ton of money, taxes, school loans for both me and my wife. i really dont know what to do.

in my thinking and panic this afternoon i decided to email both of my spiritual rocks, well two of them at least, and let them in on the situation. one said this... "you hate your job, forget the money, God will provide that, go find something you love." first off i need to say that the guy who said this is the guy i play bass for and that i have been wanting to raise our game with to bring our band to the next level. i have been praying that God bring success to our band so that we can use our band as an example to what He wants a band to be. i also would like us to become a voice for Him in places and with people that would not normally hear His word. having said that this got me to thinking, maybe i need to make a leap of faith toward this direction. maybe in my faithfulness He will bring us to this place of success. or maybe my leap of faith will bring a certain clear direction for my life. i am for sure a jack of all trades and a master of none. i enjoy so much but dont know which one is right for my life. i feel super pulled to my band and feel that i have been placed where i am for a reason.

the other friend also replied, to bring you up on his comment my boss said that if i werent insistant that i make my trip to see this friend this weekend then he would fly my to california for training this weekend on this new stuff. my friend said "maybe this is really divinely inspired because you didn't have to fly to Cali. This will be a fun crossroads of life. Hmm." maybe he is right.

on top of this advice and comments is a real kicker... the honest answer is that i do not want to do it. that makes my answer of yes very dishonest. if i had my druthers i would quit this stupid job so that i could quit wasting my time and the time of the guy that needs and the one God wants to have this job. i think i will be honest and say i dont want to do it. i need to pray about it and about what i am going to say. this is not easy, but i guess its not supposed to be.